one two three four

give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.


make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)


theres only one thing to do three words for you.
i love you.
theres only one way to say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.

give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)


theres only one thing to do three words for you.
i love you.
theres only one way to say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you

you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing to do three words for you i love you
theres only one way to say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.

i love you



-plain white Ts-

busyNovember

you want to know why this year I was so hate with November? November is like a hell for me . 30 days without fun !
filled with tasks, exams and a variety of things that are quite capable of making me bored in the end
I just complain every day, cuse i couldn't find the spirit of exams that I face
every single day , task and exams always spin around my mind, reduce my sleeping time but make my weight increased :)
I also feel this month will be the worst month this year but did not. I just find it fun and happiness during this month. Many things I could learn outside the test materials , like learn to be grateful, learn to respect , learn to manage your time or maybe even learn to love others .
I do not want to talk too much about what I feel, because you may not understand
I just wanted to say, don't think negatively with all the things you do but try to keep thinking positive that everything you do will seem so nice

enjoy your weekend ! 

silly-stupid thing around me

Pada suatu malam , ada seorang anak perempuan yang sedang kebingungan mencari alat tulis , yang akan digunakannya untuk ujian esok harinya . DIa kebingungan setengah mati , karena tidak mungkin dia mencari peralatan tulis di malam itu dengan alasan dia harus belajar untuk ujian .
Akhirnya , ia menitipkannya pada ibunda tercinta karena pada saat itu ibunya hendak pergi ke supermarket untuk membeli makanan ringan
Anak perempuan itu berkata ,"Ma , aku titip beli pensil 2B sama stipo ya." , dan dengan mantap ibunya mengiyakan
setelah kurang lebih 45 menit , ibunya kembali ke rumah . Anak perempuan itu dengan riang menyambut ibunya yang telah membantunya membelikan peralatan tulis untuk hari ujiannya . Anak itu membuka pintu lalu menghampiri mobil ibunya , ia bertanya ,"Ma , uda dibeliin kan?" dan dengan tenangnya sang ibu menunjukkan apa yang sudah dibelinya :
1plastik yang berisi BAKSO dan 1 paket SPIDOL
Anak perempuan itu kebingungan , sementara itu sang ibu dengan santainya menjawab ,"Ini , tadi kamu titip spidol kan?Mama beliin sepaket itu ada warna warni"
Anak perempuan ini menyahut dengan pasrah ,"Mamaaaaa , tadi aku titip SETIPO , buka SEPIDOL~" . Sang ibu yang mendengar pernyataan anaknya pun hanaya mampu menjawab ,"Oalaaaaaah mama salah beli ya berarti?" (sebenarnya mungkin anak perempuan ini harus belajar menggunakan kata Bahasa Indonesia yang baik dengan ibunya , mengucapkan tip-ex atau correction pen bila perlu)
Dengan langkah gontai anak perempuan itu berjalan kembali ke kamar sambil berkata dalam hati ,"Dosa apa gue hari ini."
Setelah mencoba menunjukkan ekspresi orang pasrah dengan tertawa layaknya babi , tapi ternyata tidak bisa dilakukan karena mungkin dia tidak ada bakat bersaudara dengan babi , anak perempuan itu masuk ke kamar adik laki-lakinya dan membuka kotak pensil adiknya . Tersenyum melihat benda merah yang bertuliskan Pentel correction pen , mengambilnya dan kembali ke kamar

in to you

Early in the morning I was still in bed
You call me just in time when the sunlight comes
You said "How was your sleep? I didn't do too well. Would you be a friend and take a walk with me?"

My friends they all been telling me that you're no good
You broke a lot of hearts and you don't even know
I refuse to believe any of that is true
But I'll hate it when they're right and tell me told you so

I don't want to be a victim of a broken heart
I don't want to put myself into another mess yeah
I don't want to be a fool and make a big mistake
I've should've known better, but it's allright
Cause I'm in to you

Early in the morning I was still in bed
We've talked about an hour till my ear turns red
You said "It's getting late, I'm gonna have to go. I'll be getting ready so how 'bout that walk?"

My friends been telling me that I should let you go
You broke a lot of hearts and then you run away
I refuse to believe any of that it's true
But I'll hate it when they're right and tell me told you so

I don't want to be a victim of a broken heart
I don't want to put myself into another mess no
I don't want to be a fool and make a big mistake
I've should've known better, but it's alright
Cause I'm in to you

Early in the morning I was still in bed
The thought of you remains the biggest mystery
I was left unsure of all this thing would go
I guess I'll think about it when I walk with you


anonymous

Everyone says that you only fall in love once, but that's not true, every time I see and hear your voice I fall in love all over again.

cinderella story (read : jadi babu)

Minggu , 4 Oktober 2009
BadSunday


Hari Minggu seharusnya jadi hari santai buat semua orang yaah bisa dibilang seharusnya jadi hari yang menyenangkan , tapi buat aku , hari Minggu yang aku lewati = NERAKA
Berawal dengan aku bangun di pagi hari dengan matahari sudah terbit duluan (baca : aku telat bangun), setelah jalan beberapa langkah dengan tampang lesu dan gontai , aku akhirnya sampai di kamar mandi dengan selamat meskipun ada insiden kejeduk pintu (untuk kesekian kalinya) dan juga diiringi dengan omelan mama karena aku telat bangun.
Setelah aku selesai mandi , dilanjutkan dengan sarapan , pisang goreng , sandwich dan susu hi-calcium . Oke , cukup kenyaang akhirnya :)
Sarapan , ganti baju , berdandan lalu berangkat ke gereja . Pas di gereja sampai aku di rumah lagi , belum ada tanda - tanda yang menunjukkan kalau hari ini bakal jadi hari SIAL . weel , saya pun masih tertawa bahagia
Begitu aku nyampe di rumah , lepas sepatu , masuk ke kamar , JENGJENGJENGJENG , tiba-tiba mama manggil aku dengan suara nyaring dan lantang bak komandan upacara pas upacara 17an (oke gue agak sedikit lebay haha)
Dengan segera dan terburu - buru , aku menghampiri mama yang sedang di dapur , eeeh ternyata

mom     : "kak , tolong bantuin mama beres - beres rumah ya?ngga berat - berat kok."
saya      : (agak bingung) "lho , emang si mbak rom kmn ma?"
mom     : "mbak rom hari ini kayaknya ga dateng deh  , minta bolos hari Minggu . buktinya jam segini juga belum dateng."
saya      : (mengangguk dengan lesu) "ooh gitu . yauda , terus aku mesti ngapain ini? jangan yang aneh-aneh ya ma nyuruhnya~"
mom     : "ah ngga banyakkok . kamu cukup nyapu aja , terus ngelap-ngelap , beresin kamarmu skalian sama kamar adek juga , abis gitu bantuin mama masak ya ntar agak sorean kamu ngepel . terus eeh jangan lupa anjing anjingnya dimandiin juga"
saya      : (teriak dalam hati) WHAT ! GITU KATANYA GA BANYAK ?! wanjiiing~ (mulai keluar kata2 aneh di dalam hati gue)
               "HA ?mama bercanda ? katanya tadi ga banyak? itu sih emang ga banyak tapi BUANYAAAAK !"
mom     : "lho ? segitu banyak ? halaah gapapa deh kak , skali-skali biarin mbak rom berlibur hari Minggu"

oke aku bisa nerima alasan 'skali skali biarin pembantu libur di hari Minggu' , tapi yang g bisa gue terima kerjaan gue banyaknya amitamit jabang bayi~

saya      : "iyaiya ma , ntar aku kerjain . tapi mama juga bantuin ya . masa aku kerja semua sendiri? ntar berat badanku turun" (haha mama paling kasian kalau tau berat badanku turun :p)
mom     : "iya gampang"

setelah perbincangan panjang nan lebar itu , aku pun ganti kaos tipis dan celana pendek bali (sebelumnya masih pake rok , abis dari gereja) . Pergi ke dapur dengan pakaian seperti itu , aku mengambil sapu , kemucing , lap kaca dan semprotannya , lalu aku mengikat rambut dan mulai bekerja ! oke bisa kalian bayangkan bagaimana tampangku waktu itu kan?
Hal pertama yang aku lakuin adalah beres beres kamar . Ngga ada kendala yang berat sih , secara kamar saya emang uda rapi *winkwink , jadi tinggal nyapu aja . Puas uda bikin kamar semakin kinclong , lanjut beresin kamar adek saya I Gede Nyoman Angga Vedanta . Pertama disuruh beresin kamar si gendut itu , aku nyantai aja dan aku pikir 'ah kamar anak SD , palingan juga g ada apa-apanya , ga bakal ada buku kimia dan soal-soal matematika yang bertebaran di lantai dan tempat tidur' well , dengan semangat 45 aku membuka pintu kamar adek tersayang dan HASILNYA ........jrengjrengjreng

SUPER DUPER BERANTAKAN LUAR DALAM !


oh my Goooooooooooooooooooooood ! oke , ada CD - CD games yang bertebaran di kasur , selimut yang belum dilipet , bantal dan guling dimana mana (ada yang di kasur , di lantai dan di kolong kasur) , laptop dibiarkan menyala di atas meja , di sebelah laptop ada komputer yang monitornya baru tapi kok uda berdebu semua sejak dipake si adek , ada kemeja dan celana panjang si adek yang tidak tertata rapi di atas kasur , kayaknya dia abis ganti baju terus dilempar dengan seenak udel , ada bungkus permen Sugus , Frutella tp ga ada permennya , dan masih banyak lagi
setelah aku memaki adekku dalam hati dan ngedumel sendiri , akhirnya aku beresin juga kamarnya yang penuh debu dan bau pesing (adekku masih ngompol apa??) . Waktu beres-beres , aku nemuin sepucuk kartu ucapan di dalam laci belajarnya (fyi : dulu itu meja belajarku) .
Merasa mengenali kartu ucapan itu , aku membukanya perlahan dan betapa terkejutnya karena ternyata itu adalah kartu ucapan selamat ulang tahun untukku dari seorang teman yang spesial , aku bener-bener kaget setelah sadar kalau kartu itu dia kasih ke aku dengan kado sebuah boneka saat aku berulang tahun yang ke 11 hmm berarti kartu itu sudah 6 tahun lamanya ada di laciku . oke out of the topic

Beres - beres kamar selesai ! mama mulai berteriak dari dapur dan menyuruh aku untuk membantunya memasak . Semangat ! karena merasa aku cukup pandai memasak meskipun baru belajar , tapi aku tetep PD bantuin mama masak . Tapi kesialan pun dimulai , mendadak mama ditelvon oma dan diminta ke rumah oma buat ngurusin sesuatu , oke aku oun ditinggalkan dengan resep - resep mujarab .
Pertama , motongin cabe merah 10biji , bikin aku mulai meneteskan air mata dengan lebaynya sambil menahan ingus . Cabe selesai , lanjut bawang merah dan bawang putih .aaaaragh bisa kalian bayangkan betapa melasnya wajahku waktu itu ?sendirian di dapur , nangis - nangis bombay sendiri gara2 motongin cabe dan teman-temannya . TIBA-TIBA seekor cicak pun jatuh dan saya pun terkejut lalu menjatuhkan wadah yang berisi potongan-potongan cabe dan bawang tadi ke lantai , lalu dengan tidak sengaja menyenggol gelas yang ada di situ dan PRANG ! hancur berkeping~ dengan tampang tak percaya aku melihat keadaan dapurku setelah insiden 'kecil' itu . potongan cabe dan bawang bertebaran di lantai bersama pecahan - pecahan gelas , well IT'S SO BAD ! damn it ! di tengah kegalauan apa yang harus aku lakukan , tiba-tiba mamaku datang dan langsung mengambil alih pekerjaanku tapi sambil mengomel panjang lebar . huuuft
Setelah acara masak yang gagal , aku memutuskan memandikan anjing-anjing . Mereka aku mandiin di depan teras , oke semua berjalan lancar sampai kesialanku berikutnya terjadi . Pintu pagar terbuka , dan anjingku , Trizy berlari dengan girangnya ke luar rumah . panik ?JELAS ! dengan badan yang besar dan berambut hitam cokelat , siapa yang tidak horor melihat tampang anjing betinaku yang gagah perkasa itu?bisa - bisa orang seperumahan pada pindah semua
dengan terburu-buru , aku langsung berlari keluar rumah dan mengejar Trizy , dan dengan bodohnya , pintu pagar lupa aku tutup kembali dan alhasil membuat anjing kecilku , Rybee ikut berlari keluar rumah . damn it !
dengan nafas terengah engah , eeeergh aku berusaha membuat kedua anjingku balik ke kandang . melihat anaknya belari lari keliling komplek untuk mengejar anjing , papa merasa kasihan lalu membantu
Masalah anjing selesai . tapi itu cukup menguras tenagaku dengan berlari tanpa memakai sandal zz jalanan panas .
Dengan sisa tenaga terakhir , aku mengelap pintu kaca di dekat kolam dengan penampilan bak upik abu dan perasaan mau pingsan lemah letih lesu menghantui dengan penuh kesialan
Pekerjaan selesai , aku memutuskan bersantai dan menonton TV , bukannya membuat pikiran tenang , tiba-tiba mama datang dan duduk di sebelahku lalu mulai berkata-kata tentang para cowok bibit bebet dan bobotnya . Bukan hanya itu , mama juga mulai berceramah tentang perjodohan dan tetek bengeknya . hell-o mommmmmy im still SEVENTEEN ! dan aku belum berniat nikah dalam jangka waktu 1bulan~
Menyadari suasana hariku semakin suram dengan semua kesialanku  , mama memutuskan membiarkan aku menonton TV sendiri well , okay i feel much better now
Tak terasa hari sudah sore , aku mulai bergumam ,"shit ! abis gini harus nyuci mobil"
Akhirnya aku berjalan mengambil lap dan menuju ke teras tempat mobilku diparkir , tiba-tiba mama memanggil aku dan berkata ,"ga usah dicuci deh kak mobilnya , besok aja skalian mau mama bawa ke bengkel."
Hati gembira pun menyambut ,"hahaha beneran ma? gitu kek ngomongnya daritadi" saat aku berjalan kembali ke ruang keluarga , mama memanggil dan berkata lagi ,"lho ?km ngapain di sini ?katanya mau potong rambut , ke salon sana lho , creambath skalian"
HORAAAAAAY ! finally , hari Mingguku yang melelahkan kayak pupup ini diakhiri dengan memanjakan diri ke salon , tapi aku harus pergi ke salon sendirian~ grrrr
hmm buat kalian yang sedang menikmati hari Minggu dengan tenang dan menyenangkan , berbahagialah :)
Sekian.



just give me L

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.


-Sam Keen-

i'm proud to be a woman

Broken heart is something which is very unpleasant. The world looks so annoying and very painful to go through . Maybe we ever realize that all the problems that we face is not as bad as we imagine. Many things we can do but sometimes we just sit on our bed and cry to face the reality. As a woman, sometimes we are considered weak in dealing with these problems . But in fact, it need to be recognized or not, I feel if the girl was ten times stronger than men. Women in general much more use feeling and common sense in making decisions. That's why I am proud to be a woman. There are some tips that I have done to forget all my problems, hmm I know that it can't make our problem disappear in quick time, but at least can make ourselves more valuable :)







  • First . Don't often open his Friendster or Facebook account . It'll make you angry and upset when you look at his profile, he was in love with the other woman
  • Second . Treat yourself to an activity or activities that is your hobby. Pamper yourself with the hobbies you enjoy. 
  • Third . You've to do away with the introspection . Try to flash back, what makes  this problem happened, with the thoughtful and introspection by yourself then you won't repeat your mistakes 2 times . So for your next love story maybe you can say ,"hey goodbye broken heart !"
  • Fourth.  You've to go with your bestfriends who can make you happy  . Girls nite out !(sounds great , right?) Going clubbing or just as pajamas party made you'll forget him for a moment.
  • Fifth . Don't ever look for an escape love. Don't try this one. Because if you are looking for a fake love you just destroy someone's feelings that you have created escape. And this will be a new and complex problems in your life . 


sneakers


Here’s a closer look at the upcoming Laker Air Force 1 designed by Eddie Cruz of Defeated. It features a bright yellow swoosh on a purple reptile-like upper with red sole that matches the ‘West’ varsity badge woven on the tongue, and a ‘0.44’ on the heel for Nike’s .44 Sticky Rubber in the sole.




 



an awesome collaboration between sneaker boutique DQM and Nike using the Air Max 90 Current Huarache as their canvas. The upper will feature many different shades of brown red and pink that wil all come together to create an awesome colorway










The Nike Dunk High “Thrashin” sample pics leaked sometime ago and many people immediately thought that this was a custom gone bad. Love it or Hate it the “Thrashin” Dunk has definitely created a buzz among the sneaker scene and it looks like this will be a highly anticipated release when it drops in the states.








Some new Dunk High’s are now available at Proper and other stores. The Dunks on the left feature a black/plum colorway with metallic silver accents representing the “East” on the tongue. While the Dunks on the right come in a goldenrod/grey colorway and striped back panel.









This is another pair of a well done make-over on the Nike Air Force 1 as offered at 21 Mercer Street’s Bespoke area. A two-toned Brown denim covering the sneaker’s front and midsection including the Swoosh and a Brown/Teal Safari-look leather on the heel. A touch of Yellow was applied on the midsole and laces that gives the earth colors a break.












 A lot of people actually like the new design of the Nike Auto Flight, which is why we are proud to announce that a new limited edition Auto Flight will be dropping this September,









Here is a first look at the newest Half Cab from Vans, this is the new Vans Half Cab Pro Tri Tone Red. The upper, true to it’s name features three different tones of the color red, and are accented nicely by teal.



Nike has just released a nice new colorway for their All Court model for the ladies. The all court has a very vintage feel and the only difference between the All Court and the Blazer is a rubber toe cap and a thinner swoosh. This is a very simple and clean colorway but we’re sure it will get mixed reviews from the ladies due to the vintage look.



for anyone who's become a good person, please buy me one of the shoes options above . I really want it ! who want to buy for me, you will be blessed in heaven *winkwink



St.Louis 1 Senior High School

For one more year, I will leave my status as a senior high school students
It feels just like  yesterday I was happily laughing with joy because I was accepted as a student at St. Louis 1 Senior High School , Surabaya .


I still remember how the first time I wore my school uniform and I was proud of that, it's like being a different person. 


First day of school, I  stepped in front of the school gates happily , how  I was so grateful when I learned that I was at school with girls (Irrienia Devi , Elisabeth Puspita , Grace Veronica , Marcella Kusumo) who have been willing to be my best friend ever since I was little , when I wore red and white uniform , the pride of kids elementary school


The orientation of any student I spent with feeling nervous because I met lots of new people. Can you imagine, in my first day at school, I realized that there are more less than 500 students in the same generation with me. (and I whispered) Woooow ! it would be awesome if I could know them one by one
After the introduction of school, my high school life began. Many people said that the senior high school was the most wonderful times as a teenager, but then I don't feel any pleasure, because of what? All my whole day at school  that I had spent isf fulled with work, exams, papers and other
At first time , honestly I said that I am very stressed by the circumstances, not to mention with all of my activities outside of school  . Aaaargh I feel that I never had enough time for sleep

Few months later , I tried to be realistic to deal with the fact that all the things like that I have to face every day in this school, if before I was always complaining.  Then I tried to be enjoy through all the activities and hope that I will not be a crazy person when I was a student at this school
I was lucky, because there are friends and family who always give support to me

After I went up to grade 11, all began to change slowly, I began to familiarize themselves with all the activities and the tasks with high standards in schools .The situation was getting better after I started to learn to think positively and act wisely
11th grade was felt passed so quickly. After passing all tests, examinations, activities of the organization and satisfaction following the competition at various places and having fun , having a party with my friends, now I was sitting in 12th grade. 

 
12th grade in my dictionary is like a HELL of a senior level high school. why ? because automatically , all of my activities will increase in line with the approach of many seconds before the national exam. no longer watch movies, partying, having fun, shopping, hanging out that I do like before, but tutoring activities, learning, tutoring and learning
no longer the busyness of the committee or the competition as before, but I was busy to do all the tasks and spend more time to test preparation exercises
And honestly I said , "I was so tired and feeling very depressed with all this ,  it's enough !" but then , I try to think more mature, all of these should I go through just for my future, to make my parents proud of me . So many times I said to myself  ,"You must be strong, believe that you can get through all this very well ." And hopefully it goes according to my expectations 


My last year at this school, I started thinking, if the time to go to university later on, I'll be parting with my friends that it might not meet again. it's hard to imagine that I would lose the people who like them , especially my friends since I was childhood. We are always one school since elementary school, and I can not imagine if we'd split up, their own life path. Hearing all their stories, seeing them change, seeing how great they were in my eyes. Those girl who always comforted me when I cry, who always had a creative idea to make me laugh, those people who persistently fought with me. 

I do not know if later I will find people like them again . Laughed with them, doing crazy things together, yeaaa I never thought that it was going to end  , because soon, we will live our life according to own choice
and tonight I want to say a prayer 

"Lord, thank you for all that You have given me so far, You've been willing to send me incredible people to be my best friends . Please save them , God. wherever they are . I hope someday I will be with them for one more time. Amen"
With all the pleasure and sadness that I pass, making me feel that the high school is the most wonderful time and being a  St. Louis 1 Senior High School girl is the best thing I ever live so far

style 2009






 

 
























a part of the fashion world in 2009 which is interesting for me




that's life 2

"Imagination is more important than knowledge."



-Albert Einstein-

last time


Im stuck with writing songs
just to forget, what they really were about
and these words
are bringing me,so deeply in debt
that I don't think I can dig my way out.
i couldn't breathe you in
like i need to
and the words don't mean a thing.

so i'll sing this song to you,
for the last time.
and my heart is torn in two,
thinkin' of days spent without you.
and there is nothing left to prove

im counting all the things i coulda done,
to make you see that i wanted us to be
what i go to sleep and dream of
i want you to know that i'd die for you.
i'd die for you.
i couldn't breathe you in like i need to
and the words don't mean a thing

so i'll sing this song to you for the last time.
and my heart is torn in two
thinkin' of days spent without you.
and there's nothing else to prove
and if you are alone make sure you're not lonely.
cuz if you are i blame myself.
for never being home.
i know im not the only one
who will treat you like they should.
like you deserve.

im stuck with writing songs just to forget.

so i'll sing this song to you
for the last time.
and my heart is torn in two.
thinkin' of days spent without you.
and there's nothing left to prove.
there's nothing
there's nothing
there's nothing left to prove
[secondhand serenade]

tears drop on my guitar


Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause its so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night


He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause


He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see. 
taylor swift

aaaaaaargh !

in this moment , there are so many bad things that im feeling
confused

sad

angry

disappointed

bored
doubtful

hopeless

weak
and it makes me  so FRUSTATED !
oh no~ it's hard for me to enjoy my life :( i hope that everything is gonna be alright , my illnes doesn't recur again and i can through all my activities as usual . 
now i sit here and say a prayer
God, give me strength to go through all my life , I'm weak and I couldn't do anything without Your help. please show me the way to solve all my problems. I just believe in You.
Amen

that's life



"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."


FRIENDS

ada yang bilang teman itu segalanya , teman itu adalah hal yang paling berharga yang menjadi bagian dalam hidup kita . 
teman yang baik itu mau mendengarkan semua tetek bengek cerita kehidupan kita , semua uneg - uneg , pelampiasan rasa marah kita ( bener kan? ) atau bahkan bisa  dibilang , temen itu tong sampah berjalan buat kita . Tong sampah ini beda dari tong sampah lain yang biasa kita lihat di pinggiran jalan , di deket WC , di halaman , di pinggiran sungai atau di manapun kalian pernah lihat tong sampah yang bertulisan 
'TEMPAT SAMPAH'
mau dipungkiri atau tidak , jujur atau bohong disumpahi dalam hati , mencari seorang teman yang baik luar dalam itu susahnya juga luar biasa
tidak semua orang mau menjadi tempat pencurahan semua emosi kita , semua cerita kita , mulai dari masalah keluarga , pacar - pacaran yang menyakitkan hati , sekolah yang membosankan sampai bikin kita mau gantung diri atau bahkan sampai di masalah keungan sekalipun
seorang teman yang baik pasti pada umumnya akan selalu membantu kita , memberikan solusi - solusi mujarab untuk membantu menyelesaikan masalah kita , bahkan mereka juga tak segan - segan rela berkorban demi kita . Pengorbanan mereka itulah yang sebenernya membuta gue terharu sampai aku mutusin nulis blog ini

apa sebenarnya makna kata 'teman' buat kalian?

 - ada seorang cewek yang bilang ,'hmmm temen itu cuma sarana buat diajakin seneng - senengan aja sih . biar kalo hangout gitu ada yang nemenin'
 - ada juga cowo bijak yang bilang ,'temen itu segalanya . tanpa mereka gue bukan apa - apa di sini'
 - tapi ada juga si freaky yang bilang gini ,'temen itu segalanya deh . bisa bayarin gue kemana mana gitu . makanya gue kalo cari temen itu yaaah yang berduit lah jadi kalo pergi gue ga bakal bingung di ongkosnya'
well , dari semua contoh jawaban di atas , aku ngambil kesimpulan kalau setiap orang memang punya pikiran yang berbeda - beda dalam menanggapi makna teman sebenarnya
kalau buat aku , teman itu ........
is a part of my life which have a lot of meaning :)
why ?
karena mereka yang selama ini selalu nemenin aku . orang - orang ini yang selalu ada buat aku , mulai aku yang depresi , aku yang susah , di saat aku nangis  , mengalami momen - momen penting ,ataupun di saat aku tertawa . 
sebagai anak perempuan yang jarang berada di rumah ( yea , my activities made me rarely at home) , secara otomatis aku membutuhkan sosok orang - orang yang bisa mengerti kehidupanku
and i found them ! :)
aku bertemu dengan orang - orang ini saat aku masih duduk di bangku Sekolah Dasar , saat tinggi badanku belum mencapai 167 cm , dan saat aku masih memakai seragam merah putih kebanggaan yang dipakai anak SD pada umumnya.

 


awalnya aku tidak menyangka bahwa orang - orang inilah yang kini menjadi bagian penting dari hidupku .
bahkan hingga detik ini , mereka masih dengan setia ada di sampingku , memberi aku support dan semua celotehan yang mujarab . setelah bertahun - tahun aku mengenal mereka , aku tidak menyangka semuanya berlalu begitu cepat dan kini kita sudah duduk di bangku akhir SMA (yeaaa taun depan LULUS ! ) , itu artinya semakin singkat waktu yang aku punya untuk bersama mereka . 


info yang aku dapat , kita semua akan melanjutkan studi ke berbagai tempat yang berbeda dan ada jarak jauh yang memisahkan
menyedihkan memang . 
sampai detik aku menulis blog ini , aku masih bertanya dalam hati ,'mungkin ga ya ntar kita ketemu lagi?'
rasa takut pun mulai melanda
banyak pertanyaan yang berputar di otakku ,'ntar kalo ada masalah aku critanya ke siapa?' atau 'ntar kalo kita lost contact gimana ?' dan blablabla masih banyak lagi
tapi aku mencoba berpikir realistis and make sure that everything is gonna be okay :)
seperti pesan singkat yang pernah aku dapet dar salah seorang teman
 sahabat diawali dengan mata , dibangun dengan pengertian dan hanya berakhir dengan kematian
merekalah yang membuat aku masih bisa berdiri tegak seperti sekarang , mungkin tanpa mereka aku bukan siapa - siapa
i shoul be grateful to have bestfriends like them . mereka orang - orang yang sangat luar biasa yang pernah aku kenal
thanks to :
  • my superextraordinaryfriends , you're so amazing girl 
(ini foto masih jaman SMP , masih pada kumus - kumus , jangan dibandingkan dengan sekarang)


elisabeth puspitasetyaningtyas , irrienia devi permata putri , grace veronica sompie , amelia magdalena soewastiardjo , marcella kusumo , jesica geovani santoso , florentina puspitasari , evinda , josephine nidya prayogo
  • my superbrother , thankyou for being my good listener :)


theodorus mulyanandrio wicaksono , boy de nova
  • my best classmates , you're rock baby !


sylvani , gladys , mocha , sherly , horas , obi , luke , chichi , wendy , marco , philip , yurike , ace , tephy , davita , ingrid , arif , sonia, dian , reta , edwin , vincent , reyner , candi , fefe , ardine , genial , yere , vania , tita , hilda , christina , lisa , vero , roy , ira , wahyu , erick
+
teresa wangunhardjo , bernadette anggita
  • tutor MOS/OPS SMAK. St Louis 1 Surabaya 09- 10

i'm proud to be a part of them , yeaaah sinlui ! brrrrrrrrrrrrravooo !
being a part of their life is a pleasure for me . mkasi buat semuanya , having you as my best friend is the happiness of my life :)

p.s : buat nama nama yng belum saya sebutkan di sini , maaf ya . you still the best :)


weight loss

today , i want to talk about weight loss
why i  invite you discuss about your weight?
hmm honestly , weight loss was a sensitive topic for woman in general
there are women who struggled to follow a diet to lose her weight, but some of them are struggling to raise their weight. They are vying to have a good body like a 'gitar spanyol' :) I am the type who fought to raise weight and it's very difficult to do aaaargh make me frustated aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarggh !
so for all of you who already have an ideal body shape , you should be grateful for that

hmm I want to tell you about my life , I 'm 17 years old and I have a problem with my weight
I have 166 cm height but my weight ranges from only 43 to 45 kg 



for your information, I am not the kind of person who doesn't like to eat, haha but I was the type of person who have a spirit to enter all the delicious food in my stomach :p
but it didn't make my body become fat. I still a skinny girl as usual, it makes me ask myself  , "If I keep a big dragon in my little stomach like this? " 
 
There is also a friend of mine who said, " or maybe you keep a lot of worms in your stomach" haha i just laughed when i heard him  
thoughts about the strange creature is always spinning in my head, so I decided to consult a doctor , her answer made me happy because in fact I didn't keep anything in my stomach
the doctor also gave me some tips to make my body becomes more ideal, so these tips may also be useful for you who have weight problems like me
  • Eat more calories
Generally required calories in the average is 2200 calories in light activity. For women, about 1900 calories. You need to add an extra 1000 calories per day to obtain at least 0.4 to 0.5 kg a week.
  • Make smart choices
Choose milk, fish and meat than bread. Also select eggs than vegetables. High-protein foods such as beans and high fiber foods and carbohydrates such as potatoes, rice, sweet potatoes are good for you
  • Sleep is a time for growth
This is often forgotten by people who are skinny, because they usually have high energy, so difficult to sleep and eventually ignore it and often sleepless. And your body can only grow larger during sleep and certainly not less than 7-8 hours a day.
  • Eat more often
Do not wait until your belly was hungry, eat on a regular basis soon. But also do not eat till too full, because the digestive process to be less than perfect. As much as possible for the portion you usually eat 3 times a day to 6 times a day.
  • Drinking is essential
Although only water, but it is useful to your body in order to drain the food source. Add also drink high-calorie drinks such as fruit juice or milk.
  • Increase your exercise and training
But not any useful exercise to gain weight.

  • Consistent!
May need a few months so that you can increase your body weight. Some people are so easily frustrated and immediately decided how he was doing for 2 weeks failed because it wanted a drastic results.

good luck  fellas! :)

getting worse


there is a friend who asked me this morning , 
he                  : ' hey ! you look so happy . what's going on ?'
 

i just smile at him then i back to seat

honestly I do not know what i'm feeling now .  angry , sad or maybe dissapointed
sad. yea a few days ago these word always fly around  my brain . but it was all over,  i'm trying to be strong . I just tried to distract it with all my busyness because i know that the sadness won't make it back like before
angry. i remember when I shared all my stories with my best friend , she was angry after that



she          : 'did you feel angry like me ?'


I said       : 'of course not . why ?'
she          : '(shouted) aargh ! ooh God . i dont know what you're thinking honey . but i hope you can be strong as usual to face all this problem'
I said       : 'i hope so :) '


angry for what ? i think there's nothing wrong with that . it only make my tears keep running down my face and it also won't make me feel much better .  everyone has their own choice, and I don't have the right to interfere. Just let them live in their world, I just can only say a prayer :)
disappointed. a simple word but i always feel like that when i've got a big problem . i was probably causing all these problem but actually i dont think that it would be like this


honestly until now I still feel regret with the decision hat  i've made at that time. I realized that I wasn't the right person for you. I know we can't repeat that moment again. I
im so sorry for everything I did . I made you disappointed  , although you gave me that best moment in my life
thank you for all the things that you've done in my life, you taught me how to love unselfishly , for that i should be grateful . i hope you'll find the other woman who is better than me . 






As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change .
I will always keep falling in love with you. 

And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.


(iris)



goodbye :) 

p.s : your picture is always on my desk , dedicated for mario antonius soewastiardjo

 



four answers

yeaa , my bestfriend asked me to complete this :)
FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
saras , neneg , putu , klepon

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
may 10th , march 21th , january 7th , february 14th and all the dates that i've spent 

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
eating ( im so hungry babby ) , studying for my Indonesian test , chitchatting with my friends and singing :)

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
laughing , hanging out with my friends and my fams , ice cream , music

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
my childhood friends , my little sister ( made shima mahadewi ) , and all the people who had been a part of my life

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE :
new mobilephone , a box of chocolate , some dress and a prayer :)

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES (CURRENTLY):
eating , singing , taking self pictures , laughing all the way

FOUR PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
maladewa island , paris , bali ( of course ) , england

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
mineral water, milkshake  , fruit tea and a cup of coffee

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
my mobilephone , wallet , small comb and tissue

FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
yellow , soft pink , white and blue , well actually i like all colors

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS:
i like sutos :)

TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH:
my daddy , mommy , my lil brother and my best friends

TOP FOUR ASIAN ACTORS
nope

FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
my family , all my friends especially my good listerners , everything feel so special in my life

FOUR FAVOURITE "UNUSUAL" SONGS:
hmmm sorry,  i dont know :p

FOUR EVENTS YOU WILL NEVER FORGET:
my sweetseventeen birthday , mos/ops sinlui 09-10, and all the events that i've been through

FOUR THINGS YOU OFTEN DID WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
joined drawing and dancing competition , fell while riding a bike , crying and singing :D