getting worse


there is a friend who asked me this morning , 
he                  : ' hey ! you look so happy . what's going on ?'
 

i just smile at him then i back to seat

honestly I do not know what i'm feeling now .  angry , sad or maybe dissapointed
sad. yea a few days ago these word always fly around  my brain . but it was all over,  i'm trying to be strong . I just tried to distract it with all my busyness because i know that the sadness won't make it back like before
angry. i remember when I shared all my stories with my best friend , she was angry after that



she          : 'did you feel angry like me ?'


I said       : 'of course not . why ?'
she          : '(shouted) aargh ! ooh God . i dont know what you're thinking honey . but i hope you can be strong as usual to face all this problem'
I said       : 'i hope so :) '


angry for what ? i think there's nothing wrong with that . it only make my tears keep running down my face and it also won't make me feel much better .  everyone has their own choice, and I don't have the right to interfere. Just let them live in their world, I just can only say a prayer :)
disappointed. a simple word but i always feel like that when i've got a big problem . i was probably causing all these problem but actually i dont think that it would be like this


honestly until now I still feel regret with the decision hat  i've made at that time. I realized that I wasn't the right person for you. I know we can't repeat that moment again. I
im so sorry for everything I did . I made you disappointed  , although you gave me that best moment in my life
thank you for all the things that you've done in my life, you taught me how to love unselfishly , for that i should be grateful . i hope you'll find the other woman who is better than me . 






As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change .
I will always keep falling in love with you. 

And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.


(iris)



goodbye :) 

p.s : your picture is always on my desk , dedicated for mario antonius soewastiardjo

 



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